Angry at myself

[Artemis]

Sunshine floods into the room
Covering the sense of gloom
With fire and sparks, warming hue
I’m sitting here, I should be with you.

Anxiety returns with biting teeth,
Around his neck, already a wreath
Yet he exaggerates to all who listens
Whilst above his head a halo glistens.

What will it take to keep me calm
To unchill this room, keep me warm?
The biting teeth dig deep inside
The jaws of hell they open wide.

Depression, invisible yet still there
Over and over is this torment fair?
Sacrifices made with heart
But I wonder why I play this part.

I wish I was cruel, insensitive, mean
Like all our married life he’s been.
Yet stupid me I stay to nurse
My demise, my flaming curse.

So angry at myself.

[carousal]

If this is a personal write Kerry it sounds as if you are on a roller coaster. Only you can decide on how long you want the ride to last and when you want to get off.
Take care now.

[NewMan™]

would it only be so simple, that life is just black and white instead of all these colors of gray..

don't be angry with yourself for being a good person Kerry, we must always remain true to who we are inside, regardless of the cost. Faith.. it's hard to keep but it means believing in something we can't yet see but we feel, deep inside, is real and is what we want in life when all is said and done.

D.

[apocalypticjay]

You can't help being you, and if it wasn't for you being who you are and caring some much you wouldn't be the great person we know and love! You have to know we all care for you and are here whenever you want to vent Ker xx

[Jamie~poetshare.forumotion.com]

You always give us your emotions so clearly when you write, my friend. Rhyme and meter come naturally now, and if I may touch upon the subject a bit: all feelings are valid, yours and his. Stress makes everything ten times as aggravating, as hurtful, as vain. . . what you're feeling is natural, even considering. Bless you for feeling so comfortable with us to share something so intimate to your soul. *hugs*